Gray day. Clouded, no doubt, by that medical concern of mine. Is it me, or has that lump increased in size? Called a private hospital to set up an appointment with them tomorrow Tuesday, have no time to wait for the civil service to respond. Am pretty upset about it, fuelled by reading too much about lumps and lungs and cancer and what have you on the internet. Shouldn’t be doing that, but couldn’t help myself. Upset, probably the wrong word; “scared”, much better. Am coughing too much, why is that. I need to know what the fuck this thing is, and I can’t wait. ~~~ Tomorrow Tuesday. Am hoping for a quiet day.